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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Choose_Not_To_Use_Archive_Warnings, No_Archive_Warnings_Apply, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      cashton_-_Fandom, 5SOS, 5_Seconds_of_Summer
  Relationship:
      Cashton_-_Relationship, Calum_Hood_x_Ashton_Irwin
  Character:
      Calum_Hood, Ashton_Irwin, Mali_Koa_Hood, Luke_Hemmings, Michael_Clifford
  Additional Tags:
      Smut
  Stats:
      Published: 2015-08-31 Completed: 2015-09-03 Chapters: 4/4 Words: 2265
****** She's Not You ******
by Nerd_Cake
Summary
     "She looks like you.
     She talks like you.
     She even smells like you.
     But baby, she ain't you."
     Calum and Ashton hooked up in the past, but now Ashton is with
     Calum's sister, and he feels there is nothing he can do about the
     feelings he has for Ashton. Until one night, things take a drastic
     turn for change.
***** Chapter 1 *****
The last time Calum saw Ashton was outside of his house. His nose was stifled
from the cold and he was telling Ashton how much he liked his company. Ashton
had smiled cutely and told Calum he'd like to see him again. But Calum didn't
get his number. He didn't have one. Although Calum gave him his, he never heard
from Ashton again. It hurt to know that it was just a one night stand.
Calum thought they really could have had something.
That was almost six months ago, and although it had been half a year, Calum
still remembered everything he'd learned about Ashton that night. His favorite
bands, and how he felt about Vegemite. Although Calum thought Vegemite was
gross he laughed that morning when Ashton moaned into his toast.
"Cal? Snap out of it!" Calum looked up at Michael squinting at him. "I was
having a very pleasant daydream, Michael. You ruined it." Michael scoffed.
"Yeah, well it was that or you'd have gotten run over." Calum looked up at the
street. "Oh...I forgot where we were."
Michael sighed. "Wish I could do that." He muttered before walking across the
school parking lot and towards the front doors. Calum agreed with him
grudgingly following him inside the school. High school sucked major dick.
^*^*^
Calum flicked a lettuce leaf off of Luke's plate and he glared at him. "What?
You weren't eating it anyway." Michael leans into Luke closing his eyes.
Everyone looks so tired. It's scary. It's like sitting at a table full of
zombies.
Calum just glared at Michael and Luke being all over each other. Although they
were, they were not together. Calum knew that they liked each other, but
neither of them had the balls to admit it.
"What? What did I do?" Luke asked noticing Calum's stone cold glare. Michael
looked up at Calum expressing his confusion as well. "Can you guys just suck
face already? I'm really tired of this...flirting routine you have going on."
Luke's eyes blew wide, and Michael stared probably waiting to see how Luke
would react. His face was red and he looked like he'd been put on the spot.
"What are you talking about?" He gasped. Calum rolled his eyes looking to
Michael. "Really?" Michael bit his lip. Luke noticed and seemed to relax, but
he was still hella confused. Had Calum just set them up? He groaned. "I just
wanna be happy with somebody, why can't I find a cute boy to cuddle me?" Calum
whined.
Michael giggled. "You wanna cuddle?" Calum cringed at him. "No, not when your
Luke's sloppy seconds." Luke's jaw dropped. "How'd you-" Michael slapped a hand
over his mouth. "What?" Calum asked confused. Michael glared at Luke, and Calum
frowned.p>
***** Chapter 2 *****
Calum toed his shoes off as soon as he made it inside. His bag was thrown
carelessly aside as he made his way to the kitchen. He sang along to the sound
of Second Hand Serenade playing through his ear buds. The volume was up so loud
he hardly heard the voice behind him.
"I don't understand why you aren't famous yet. Maybe you should audition for
Australia's Got Talent or something." Calum groaned, exasperated hearing Mali's
voice. Pulling a carton of ice cream from the freezer he turned around. "Shut
up."
Mali just grinned as Calum's eyes landed on the figure in the doorway. Calum
gulped seeing his expression. He looked horrified. "W-who's this?" Calum asked
instead of blowing his cover. Mali smiled. "This is who I told you about.
Ashton, remember? My boyfriend?" Calum's chest ached. "Oh." He said painfully.
"You okay? You're turning white..." Calum nodded turning around to throw the
ice cream back in the freezer. "Just...feeling a little sick to my stomach."
Calum said brushing past the tall boy he never thought he would see again. His
curls were a little longer that last Calum had seen, but his green eyes were
still hidden behind glasses. "Nice to finally meet you, Ashton. I'm Calum." He
said blandly before leaving the room.
"That was weird." He heard Mali Say as he went upstairs. She had no idea.
*^*
"Where is it you work, Ashton?" Calum knew the answer, but he kept it to
himself. He picked at his broccoli in disgust. Ashton's voice made his insides
feel like peeling bark. Some pieces just weren't ready to peel and hurt like
hell. Even Calum didn't understand what he was thinking.
"You okay, Cal?" His mother asked. Everyone looked to him. "Just...Michael and
Luke finally told me they were...hooking up." His mom made a face. "Really?
How's that make you feel?" Calum frowned. "I'm really happy for them." Mali
scoffed. "Then why do you look so upset?"
Calum looked to his sister avoiding Ashton's eyes. "I just wish I could find
someone...you know...like you did." Calum finally looked at Ashton, but he
wouldn't meet his gaze. Calum was teeming with anger. Why wouldn't he look him
in the face.
"May I be excused?" Calum asked through the silence. "'Course, sweetie." Calum
was gone before she even finished speaking. Maybe he could stop thinking about
it when he got to his room. He was wrong. As soon as the door shut it felt like
a three story building had been dropped on him.
Everything hurt, and Calum wanted to cry. He fought back the anger he had
towards his friends and called Michael. He needed a cuddle. Even if he was
Luke's sloppy seconds. Calum just wanted to feel like he wasn't so alone, or
maybe he just wanted to feel like he wasn't some blow up sex doll Ashton
stabbed with a knife.
***** Chapter 3 *****
Michael pulled Calum closer as they lay on the couch. "He's a dick, forget
about him." Michael muttered, but in the back of his mind, he knew Calum
wouldn't. And he knew why as well. Ashton was the second most attractive person
Michael had seen in all his life, and he was cute. Michael heard his giggle
when he came into the house. He's also heard Calum's horrible sob. Michael had
thought he was dying.
Calum seemed to feel that way. "It's not the end of the world you know. And
remember you're missing out on the bad stuff too. Fights suck when you're in a
relationship." Michael said. Calum scoffed. "But you and Luke argue all the
time over stupid shit, you always get over it, or you probably have make up sex
or something." Michael sighed. "Stop talking about it, or you'll give me a
boner."
Calum groaned. "I really hate you guys." Michael laughed. "If it makes you feel
any better, Luke was really beat up about not telling you, and also blurting it
out..." Calum looked up at him, his face flushed, and his eyes puffy. "Really?"
"Oh, Calum." Michael said sympathetically. Calum cringed hiding back in his
neck. "Stop feeling bad for me. Just...hold me until I forget." Michael sighed.
"You know replacing this feeling of loneliness with my cuddles, as much as I
like the idea, is not going to work."
Calum sobbed. "I know but it makes me feel better." Mali's voice made Calum
jump. "Awe, you guys. Calum it's okay." She patted his back, but Calum flinched
away. Michael turned them over seeing it. Calum had told him everything over
the phone.
"Don't touch my kiwi, bitch." Michael growled. Mali just laughed ruffling his
messy blonde hair. Calum was still waiting for the green Michael had promised
him. "Oh, stop being so possessive Michael. Nobody likes that."
"I do." Calum tensed. "Ass." Michael muttered under his breath. "What?" Calum
looked up seeing Ashton looking very confused. He nearly looked upset, until he
noticed Calum was crying. "C-Calum, are you okay?" It was the first time Ashton
had said his name since that night. Calum felt crushed.
Michael pulled him tighter against him as he cried. "What's going on?" Mali
looked up at her mother and smiled sadly, concern dripping from her expression.
"Cal's depressed or something." Calum sniffed. "Screw you, Mali. My cat died."
"Since when did you have a-" Michael cleared his throat. "We found him...he'd
been staying at my place. Luke, Cal, and I had been taking care of him, but
sadly he passed last night." Michael was such a great liar. Calum was so
grateful that they were friends.
"I'm so sorry Michael. But Calum, is this really affecting you that much?"
Michael laughed. "Well, I also told him about Luke being beat up about the
stuff today, so... It's just been a really shitty day." Calum kicked him for
cursing at his mother. Grateful as he was, it was disrespectful.
"Can everyone just go away please?" Calum grumbled. "I'll see you later babe."
Calum tensed mentally and physically cringing as he heard a smack of lips. When
the door shut he sagged into Michael, who huffed. "Thank god, it's over." Calum
whimpered. "Not for me."
***** Chapter 4 *****
Chapter Notes
     WARNING: CHAPTER = VERY EXPLICIT!!!
Calum had avoided going home all week, and for good reason. It seemed Ashton
had made it a habit to come over almost every other day. Mali seemed to not
mind at all. She had even tried to talk to Calum about how intense their
relationship had gotten. "It was liked, he became more intimate after coming
over, you know?" Calum almost threw up on his dinner plate. "Everything is so
much more...intense."
Calum stood up from the table with his plate and headed up to his room. He
slammed the door shut and nearly broke the plate putting it on his dresser. He
was sick an tired of Mali going on about Ashton. After all, Calum knew how good
he was in bed. And he'd almost blurted it out on a number of occasions.
But he wouldn't hurt his sister. She was happy with Ashton, and Calum wanted
her to be happy. If only he could be happy too. Calum's phone lit up with a
message from Michael saying that he couldn't come over tonight. Calum groaned,
knowing he couldn't sneak over to Luke's because, the last time he tried, Liz
caught him. Liz was strict when it came to school nights. Calum could never
stay over.
So Calum sat in his desk chair and prayed no one came up to bother him.
*^*
Calum was hot. In more ways than one. He had tried so hard to forget about that
night, that he couldn't stop thinking about it. Ashton's smooth skin, clear of
any tattoos. His sweat damp curls sticking to his forehead as his body worked-
Calum whimpered thinking about his muscles flexing with every push of his hips.
He couldn't stop his hand from having a mind of it's own. Couldn't stop it from
slipping into his sweats.
He didn't have the strength to stop his fingers from pressing tight against his
entrance. "Oh, god..." Calum gasped.
It was late, and everyone in the house seemed to be sleeping. Even Mali. Calum
had seen her lights go out almost an hour ago. Maybe thinking of Ashton with
Mali would help him cool down. No. It made it worse. It made Calum remember
even more.
Remember the way Ashton had whispered to him about how perfect he was. The way
he held onto him like he was all that mattered in the world. It was more than
enough to make Calum discard his sweat pants, and his All Time Low t-shirt.
Calum couldn't help but think that Ashton never held her like that, never
fucked her like that. Against himself, he liked the thought. Against himself
whimpered out Ashton's name as he pressed his fingers inside. He loved the burn
of the stretch, and he wanted more. He wanted Ashton, his thick cock. Calum
moaned remembering how Ashton got so worried when he hissed, but when Calum
told him how much he liked it Ashton lost control.
"Fuck..." He whined propping himself up against his headboard. He didn't even
want to touch himself. He wanted to cum untouched. Untouched and at the thought
of Ashton. Calum's chest ached though because, he knew how pathetic he was. He
knew Ashton would never be his.
But he had him once, and maybe that would cut it for now. Maybe this was just
weird, and he'd break his sisters heart if she knew he loved Ashton. Calum
gasped. He loved Ashton? How could he? His sister was dating him...he'd hardly
known him a day. He hardly let Ashtonfuckhim in a day.
"Nngh..Ashton," Calum moaned letting his thoughts slip from his subconscious
and letting pleasure take over. He didn't care anymore. He felt the way he did
for Ashton, and there was nothing he could do about it. He wouldn't deny
himself the fact either.
Strong hands found Calum's waist and he flinched. "It's me...I'm here." Ashton
whispered into Calum's ear tracing it's shell with his tongue. Calum shivered
as Ashton kissed his skin. "This isn't real..." Calum whispered. "I hope it
is..." Ashton mumbled nipping at Calum's skin and pulling his fingers away.
Calum whimpered from the loss, but sucked Ashton's long fingers into his mouth
when he placed the tips to his swollen lips.
Calum hadn't realized he's been biting them so much. "Mali?" Calum asked when
Ashton took his fingers back slick with saliva. He didn't hesitate to push them
in. "She's sleeping, don't worry." Choked sounds left Calum's throat, but he
didn't care. Because, Ashton was touching him. And even if it wasn't real, it
felt real.
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